God Leave Me Alone!

20 "Only grant me these two things, O God,
and then I will not hide from you:

21 Withdraw your hand far from me,
and stop frightening me with your terrors.

22 Then summon me and I will answer,
or let me speak, and you reply.

--Job 13:20-22

God leave me alone! This is what I take away as I read the passage above. Job is asking God to chill out with tormenting him. His kids have been murdered. His businesses are ruined. His employees have been murdered. He has sores or boils all over his body, and he's telling God to chill out because he doesn't think he's done anything to deserve the punishment he's been receiving.

This is how I feel at times. God chill out! Seriously! I do my best to be upright in character while trying to live a holy and straight forward life as best I can. Yet crap still happens to me. My life is not near as bad as Job's was but it's close enough.

I have yet to figure out what God's plan for my life is. I'm constantly trying to listen. Today I locked my keys in my car for the second time in a six month period. I've only locked my keys in my car twice ever! Oh did I forget to mention both times my car was RUNNING!! The first time I did this my car was on for over 5 hours in a closed garage!

I know, I know, how do you lock your keys in your car while it's still on? I've done it twice! That was just an addition to my bad day. We had to call the village police to come and break into my car. I called a locksmith only to hear that they charge $95-130 to unlock your car, so we just called the police. They did it for free.

The events which occurred today has thrown a bigger wrench in my plan to achieve spiritual brokenness. I've become too angry to be broken. So far my year isn't off to a great start. However, I'm trying to stay positive because I know that this life isn't going to get easier.