The past few weeks of my lack of blogging have lead me to discover new and interesting things about myself I would otherwise have not. I've had so many mishaps in my life to where I've not fully understood but have managed nonetheless.
As for religion I've had my frustrations and doubts like anyone else, but have held fast to the fact that I believe in a God who transcends all doubt. I have relied on the fact that my love for Him is real and with Him all things are possible. It seems through my many years of studying God's word and attending conference after conference, I knew all there is to know about myself and what I need to push through.
I've made a good friend here in Chicago who is also my accountability partner the likes of which I've never had before. Colin's not afraid to ruffle my feathers and tell me things I don't want to hear. I've been fighting being broken. I've yearned for brokenness but have resisted it in every aspect.
I love God enough to do whatever it takes to help others but I don't trust Him to have total control of my life now. I don't know what it's going to take for me to give way and let God be the God He so wants to be in my life. I'm still learning to trust once more.
Trust in the things promised to me.
Trust in the prophetic words spoken over me.
Trust in God's sovereignty.
Trust in myself.
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Wonderful Weekend Full of Wonderful Things
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The thing that irritates me about God, myself, and human nature is that just when you feel you're at a point where you are broken and trusting in God, then you get prideful and think you did it on your own, so you're back where you started. It's like a never ending battle. I wish there was an easier way, like a diet pill or something. But there's not. Just that everyday grind that I'm not very good at.
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