Forgiving Ourselves to Forgive Others

"Nothing worth doing is completed in our lifetime; therefore, we must be saved by hope. Nothing true or beautiful or good makes complete sense in any context of history; therefore, we must be saved by faith. Nothing we do, however virtuous, can be accomplished alone; therefore we are saved by love. No virtuous act is quite as virtuous from the standpoint of our friend or foe as from our standpoint. Therefore, we must be saved by the final form of love which is forgiveness."

--Reinhold Niebuhr

There's been some interesting turn of events in my life as of late. None, however, to go run out and call the Calvary. This past week has been filled with drama, intrigue, frustration, joy, and a sort of pathological euphoria.

The drama and frustration came in the aspect of Christianity and the complications of certain ideas and beliefs on how our personal Small Group has been going. An eruption of emotion from all spectrums combined with a whole lot of miscommunication almost resulted in a cataclysmic disaster that could have equaled Hiroshima. Okay, that last bit could have been pushing it, but close.

Although a discussion happened I think that issues have not been totally settled but no one said this life was easy.

I find that once you learn to forgive yourself then you are free to forgive others. I have not forgotten the hope once had but sometimes I choose not to see it. I choose not to see that hope in myself and in other people. The week of drama with group has reopened my eyes to a lot of things and has gotten me to question what am I here for exactly.

We all get angry and say things at times that aren't best thought out. That's were forgiving ourselves comes into play so that we can forgive others. But I digress.

I met someone a couple weeks ago. That's where the intrigue factor comes into play. This is the first I've spoken of it and if you read this then you are the first to know. :-) I'm not going to say her name just in case someone who reads my blog happens to know her, which is highly unlikely. However, it's better to be safe than sorry.

On our initial meeting I found her to be absolutely amazing. Not only does she share the same beliefs I do, but other things about her and I are alike. I will refrain to say what just out of caution. I haven't felt so excited in a long time so I'm diving in head first.

Finally, my joy and pathological euphoria comes into play with the reunion of my old friend Greg Scheuermann. He was in town for a seminar and we got a chance to hang out a couple days catching up on life, love, and the happenings thereof.

It was truly a great few days to get to see him. I'd been looking for this kid for about four years or so and finally found him bigger (literally) and better than ever! After our time together he proposed I come move in with him in Detroit. To which I am giving deep consideration.

Until next time my friends. Be safe. More blogs to come often. Promise.